What it is to be a woman

Today I was faced with a flux of memories, feelings and knowings. And this hits the core to my womanhood. What to make of these intuitive knowings?

When I first started to open up for my feminine side 4years ago I was confronted with my fear of "being crazy". My ability to sense energies, move through dimensions and clairsentietly feel information has been labeled crazy in so many instances in my life. And I feel there is the whole collective and ancestral baggage within this topic. Witches being burned at stakes, priestesses being banned or outcasted from their temples as wheels of life keep turning. So many lifetimes of not being able to be in my feminine power. This goes deep in me.

Yesterday I found myself saying again "I just feel this way, like it's a knowing or then I'm just psychotic" And I need to stop myself here. Please dear Me, trust, know and surrender. The intuition is never wrong. Only thing that might be sometimes misinterpreted is the way that this vision should come about. It's when you bring your logic and your egoic desires to the picture and start telling yourself stories about your vision. The aspect of control that ego brings to the mix is problematic. Also that usually brings the element of lack, which actually makes you go detouring, because it might even be impossible to get the thing that you think you lack, even if it's fated. There is a certain process of surrender that must happen for the path to enfold. At least, this is how I feel about it.

So, my conclusion is, I know I'm not crazy. There is also no fear needed for "being crazy", but the thing is when I tell myself (or another) this story, it takes away the power of my intuitive nature. I can embrace the aspects of mee that see, feel and move across the ethereal world. I determine what is real for me. Talking to dragons, trees and spirits, well that is my everyday life and no it does not need to be to everybody elses liking or reality, our worlds can exist with different amounts of overlapping.

Not all things need words. But the words I cast out of myself, I want to be very clear about them. Not saying things that are against my nature.

I can rest in my knowing and intuition. I don’t need logic to intertwining in the process. There is no need for control, only to surrender, breath and sink in to the multidimensional nature of my being. I’m safe and in my power.

Picture from my beloved Art of Maquenda ❤️