Hallowed be thy name

Dear God, I have now come to the point where I am ready to give my entire life to you, it is the only form of service I desire anymore. I am ready to give up every personal dream, longing and preference. I now understand that these have been the last vestiges of my desire to hold on to my ego’s desire to control this existence.

Let your will be done, for your will is my will. All I ask is guidance to the things that still prevent the Life Force from flowing through me unhindered. For you are the way, the truth and the life itself.

I have been afraid of taking this last step, I have been afraid of what people will think of me now, that I have finally given up, for the last time. The label of a believer has been something I have been afraid to take on, but now I understand that it has no meaning for me. What anyone thinks of me or how I want to speak to you and dedicate my life to you is like fly poop, an equally insignificant force. Because I know that if you ask me for something, it is right and will take me closer to the state where I will no longer resist.

That is probably why you asked me to write this now and say it publicly, so that this is given to the field and I can experience the forgiveness that my soul longs for.

I am finally tired of fighting you. For many years I held out, I spent all my strength, I cried, screamed and stamped my feet on the ground. I could not believe in the power that surpasses me, I was so arrogant that I imagined that I could direct my life the way it should go.

But so you have gently guided me to you, step by step you have led me home, to safety and to the kingdom of heaven that is inside me, in my body and in this experience of life.

There is no other God, I will not place any power or might over you anymore, but I surrender to the Life force, your power and the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Forgive me for every way and deed I am and will still resist your Power, I admit that I do not always understand, but I know this is the only thing I miss in this life anymore.

I am ready to return home.