Sudden gifts from the universe

I have sensed there is something coming to my way, calling me towards the illuminated path of alignment.

This past month has been like crawling in a birthing canal, in this slimy primordial fluid, in complete liquid state as they call it in possibility management.

Leaving an old form behind, but not yet competely out on the other side. Trying to learn how to walk, even if only crawling is possible.

And in the past few days after weeks of stiffness something moved. I was faced with my fear of ”doing wrong” making rash decisions and I found a part that has been frozen with fear, under everything, probably with most decisions that I ever made.

Always trying to stay vigilant, always trying to make sure the path is aligned, that I’m serving the right force within me and still being blindsided with the shadow of limitation.

I was able to dive into this emotion with the help of a dear fellow soultraveller. The frightened child part of me was heard and let out that mode of ”I will be adandoned if I make a wrong choice”. And I’m wondering if all of this also has affected my Protector part, which is a surfacing theme also.

It began with the sorrow of never had a ”outside” protector, like one in the physical form. Because in the spiritual realm, I know I’m loaded with strong protectors, fierce you could say. But the longing to have someone, a human that is still alive, to be there and say ”I will protect you”.

But now as I see it it’s actually probably linked to this wounded part of me. A brutally vigilant protector has taken on the part of keeping this fearful child safe. But at the same time, the vigilance has kept the energy from moving freely. There is always a price to pay.

And this moment is revealing that maybe, the armors can start to soften. The time of constant protection is over, I’m moving into more trust and alignment with the world and even more, with myself.

My dear Jelelle Awen also just recently wrote about this and it was so spot on to my recent discoveries, thank you for that❤️

And maybe now, as my friend nicely put it, the moment is starting to ”crown” out of the birthing canal. A complete new directions are opening and with my trusting heart, I’m leaping like the fool into the known unknown.